Waiting....waiting

Wait: remain until something occurs, remain undone

Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.
Psalm 27:14

I pray to God - my life a prayer -
and wait for what he'll say and do.
My soul waits for the Lord,
waiting and watching till morning,
waiting and watching till morning.
Psalm 130:5-6 (The Message)

Can you guess the theme of this blog entry....WAIT. Waiting seems to be the theme of our lives for about 4 years now. What a wait it has been. I am now in my 36th week of pregnancy. What a great place to be right? It is yes, but now I'm ready more than ever for the girls to be born. Erik and I will talk to the girls about going to the light..haha! But what I told Erik the other day is that we need to talk to the one who knows their birthday...God. He has this planned out, we just wish he would share it with us. But yes we know that is not how He works. So we continue to WAIT.

There has been so much build up in this pregnancy, even my family is on edge waiting for these girls. After getting the great results from our ultrasound last week we now know the girls are healthy and can be born safe and sound. However, as I continue to be reminded, each day they are still in my uterus is a good day because they can continue to grow and everything can continue to develop in a safe place.

Psalm 27:14, shown above, was a psalm given to us after we lost Ivy. So, we've been strong, waiting for the Lord for almost 3 years since that life changing day. And of course the Lord never ceases to amaze us...as we sit here waiting for our twin daughters to join the world. As we go through these last few days, or maybe this last week, we are both struggling with anxiety. But each day I am reminded to remain calm, I can't rush this process, it's out of my control. Prayers for us, especially Erik, would be great. Erik is struggling with anxiety for the first time in his life... extreme anxiety. We've been praying about it and he has spoken with a few close male friends, one a pastor, and one who has himself struggled with anxiety. What he has realized is that he is suffering this due to the post traumatic stress after the death of Ivy. Being at the end of this pregnancy is causing us both flashbacks. When these flashbacks occur, we are both focusing on the fact that this is July 2011 and listing all the things that are different now. It is not October 2008, we are different, this pregnancy is different, the circumstances are different, and we must turn to our comforter, our Lord, our Savior.

Search for Me and My messages, as you go through this day.
You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with your whole being.
(Devotional: Jesus Calling)

Thanks for reading and praying dear friends. I pray that the next post on this blog will be announcing the arrival of Hope and Genevieve Bayer!
Love you all,
Jamie