28 April 2011

23 Weeks!

Your ways, O God, are holy.
What god is so great as our God?
You are the God who performs miracles;
you display your power among the peoples.
Psalm 77: 13-14

I am now 23 weeks and it's finally starting to feel like time is flying by. We had a doctors appointment today and we got to see the girls. They are looking great. They didn't do a complete scan this time but they did check out their hearts and umbilical cords, and everything looks great. In two weeks we get another complete scan and I'm excited to see the growth in each of them. Our little Hope is so dainty on the screen, always with her thumb in her mouth. Our little Genevieve is a wild child, she moves so much the sonographer can't hardly get a good photo of her. She did finally look at us and in the picture it looks like shes smiling. She loves having her picture taken, just like her mama! Another exciting day seeing God's miracles....our babies!

My struggle right now, and something that I'm praying about is the reality of the girls being in my arms. Erik and I talk about how exciting it will be when the girls are here and all the milestones we have to look forward to...however sometimes it's hard to imagine it really happening. I don't want it to sound like I don't trust the Lord...but it's hard. When I was pregnant with Ivy I had the same excitement and dreams for her...and she never came home with me. So it's hard some days to imagine the reality of bringing these babies home. When the thought enters my mind I give it over to the Lord. With my emotions on high and thoughts in my head... some days are harder than others. After losing Ephraim it hit home more than ever. Life is truly precious and right now my girls are here with me, even if I can't see them every day. So I will (try) to rest in this time the Lord has given me and have faith for the future of my babies. One day at a time!

Thought for you all to ponder:
The following is a quote from St. Augustine
Suppose God proposed to you a deal and said, " I will give you anything you want. You can possess the whole world. Nothing will be impossible for you....Nothing will be a sin, nothing forbidden. You will never die, never have pain, never have anything you do not want and always have anything you do want - except for just one thing: you will never see my face."

Really puts our love for God in perspective huh?

Bed Rest Book Club
So I finished The Scarlet Thread by Francine Rivers and absolutely loved it. A story of two women from two different times in history, but with the same struggles in life. I highly recommend it!

I am on several lists at the library for some books that some of you recommended and I have started the Above The Line Series by Karen Kingsbury. I am currently reading Take One. I am still reading Crazy Love. Erik and I reading Crazy Love together so we are going slow and trying to absorb what God wants to teach us through it. My dear friend also gave me the book Choosing to See - A Journey of Struggle and Hope by Mary Beth Chapman. A fitting book for my struggle and my hopes during this time. Stay tuned for more book reviews!

Love to you all.

PS - here's a fun picture of Mollie sunbathing in the living room

1 comment:

  1. Jamie,

    You do not know me but I worked with Eric in the ED. I have been reading your blog and am inspired by your story. Your open heart and tremendous faith are truly amazing! I know that your journey has been challenging but the Lord's love and faithfulness has truly shined through.

    I, too, have lost several babies. Just before my last pregnancy, I had given up. After lots of prayer, I had finally come to peace with all the loss. I had accepted that I would only have my daughter, Aubrey. Only one month after this revelation, I was pregnant! After the initial shock and stress (about a week), I embraced the gift that the Lord had given me. Though I did have days here and there of doubt and fear, most of my pregnancy was very peaceful. Today I have a healthy one year old baby boy! He has been such a wonderful blessing to our family. My 7 year old, Aubrey, is such an awesome big sister. God's timing was plan was absolutely better than anything I could have imagined.

    I look forward to continuing to follow your journey. I will also keep praying for you, Eric and those beautiful babies!

    With Christ's love,
    Hope Scott