20 July 2011
Hey friends! The amazing pictures above were taken by a dear friend who is a wonderful photographer. I plan to continue to share more of the pictures on the blog. It was so fun to document this time in our lives and this God-ordained pregnancy!
I am officially 35 weeks....and the countdown is really on now. I had an ultrasound yesterday, my last one, and the girls look amazing. They are still both head down, so I can deliver naturally! They are healthy and strong, Hope now weighs 6lbs. 2oz. and Genevieve is 5lbs. 15oz. No wonder my belly feels so heavy, I have 12 lbs of little girls inside me. Is that amazing or what?! So these girls can come out any time now. My doctor also said that I will not have to do steroids for the girls lungs because after 34 weeks the lungs are fully developed. So that was exciting to hear. They continue to do well on all the non-stress tests. The pregnancy is progressing as it should be...Thank you Lord!
Erik and I are ready to see these babies. This pregnancy has been amazing and so wanted. However with so much build up and excitement, we are ready for our "happy ending". It feels like I've been pregnant forever, and I think it's getting harder because I've been on bed rest and now carrying extra weight my body is wearing out on me. This heat doesn't help matters either, why did this have to be the summer of extreme heat? No more complaining...now my focus needs to be on labor & delivery. I have this anxious excitement in the pit of my stomach when I think about delivering these girls. Then when I think about bringing them home I feel even more anxious....how will I know what to do with them? I hear how crazy it is learning with one baby, how do I do it with two babies? I know I will have tons of help and support....but I'm the mom and I really want to know what I'm doing. It's the fear of the unknown...who knows what it will look like with twins...what will my days look like....will they be good sleepers....will they nurse...???? AHHHHHHHH...I'm making myself crazy..hope I'm not making you all crazy. I'm sure these are questions many mothers ask themselves...please say they are. I just needed to get that off my chest. Now I need to give to the Lord and ask Him to equip me to be the mother he wants me to be. He blessed me with these girls, and He knows what I need! I will find my strength in Him!
Please be praying, as we get closer to delivery, for the health and safety of both the girls and myself. Also please pray for Erik and I as our emotions will be all over the place when I do go into labor. We are both nervous about what that will look like. With my first pregnancy, when we lost Ivy, my water broke first and I labored at home for several hours. It wasn't until we got to the hospital that we found out we had lost her and she would be stillborn. So the dilemma becomes, if my water breaks first this time, how will we react. It's like a soldier with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, the flashbacks to Ivy's birth may hit us and cause major emotional issues. We both know that this delivery will be emotional regardless, there will be tears of joy and sadness. We would love your prayers and we know God will protect us.
Love to you all!
Posted by Jamie at 11:42 AM