02 July 2011

A Lazy Saturday


My lazy Mollie pictured above. We have taken a zillion pictures of Mollie for the last 7 years, I can't imagine how many more pictures we will take of our daughters! I plan to capture every second of their lives that I can!

Pregnancy Stuff: Ok, so my belly button is no longer. It is so stretched...I don't like touching it because it feels so weird...I'm wondering what it will look like after my belly returns to normal. I should say the new normal, my body will look very different. I know how much it changed with my first pregnancy and this time my stomach has stretched even more. Oh the changes we women go through for our children! I also wondered if insomnia is a pregnancy related issue. I am having so much trouble sleeping. I don't like to complain, because this pregnancy was so wanted, I just need to vent occasionally (all you mama's understand right?). Obviously I am uncomfortable when I sleep, and I am having issues with restless legs, but this past week I've been having insomnia. I will feel utterly exhausted and go to bed at like 10:00pm only to still be awake at 12am. What is up with that? This morning I got up and told Erik, "I don't even know if I slept last night." I'm sure I did, but not very consistently. So for all those readers out there who pray...please pray for sleep for me. Thanks for listening to me vent and for praying!

Me and My Lord:
So it's been an emotional week for me as two of my dear friends have given birth this week to beautiful baby girls. I am truly excited for these babies to be here, but also even more ready for my girls to be here, and continuing to struggle with trusting God that they will be in my arms soon. Erik got me a new devotional, Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. After having an emotional morning I opened it and the words spoke to me and the scriptures refreshed my soul. I love that about the bible, every time I open it, it truly quenches my thirst and refreshes me. My favorite quote from the devotional: Do not fear My will, for through it I accomplish what is best for you. Take a deep breath and dive into the depths of absolute trust in Me. Underneath are the everlasting arms! I love that last sentence about diving into absolute TRUST. I need to dive in and not look back...His arms will be underneath me. As hard as it is, I'm taking one day at a time and resting in Him. Each week we continue to receive good news about the girls, all of our non-stress tests have been successful thus far and each visit the doctor tells me how well things are going. Then why, why, why do I doubt? It's as if I'm waiting for something bad to happen. I'm really not a negative person, but this journey is joyous and painful....and to be honest I need a break from painful. It feels as though all the trials in my adult life have involved my children...sending 3 of them to heaven. My mind is my enemy at this point, not shutting off and analyzing too much. I continually tell myself to rest in the facts and to rest in the Lord. The facts show my babies are amazing. The Lord brings me peace in the facts. I will get through this! The Lord has plans for me, to give me a hope and a future. I will keep pressing into Him as each doubt creeps in, as each tear streams down my face, and as each day brings new challenges. His mercies are new every day!

The scripture from today's devotional. I hope it encourages you!
Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you I pray.
In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.
Psalm 5:2-3

The eternal God is your refuge,
and underneath are the ever lasting arms.
Deuteronomy 33:27

Love and blessings to all my readers! Thanks for reading my thoughts. Open the bible today and be refreshed!
Jamie

3 comments:

  1. Oh, sweetie I pray for you all the time. But, now I will really zero in for sound sleep for you! Even though it has been a very long time...I remember those sleepless nights! I have the same devotional book as you, Jamie! Isn't it fantastic? It was suggested to me by my best friend, Debbie. She loves it as well. I can hardly wait to see all the beautiful pictures you take of the girls!!!!!! It won't be long now! I LOVE YOU! Never forget that!

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  2. Awesome Jaime! :) What a great blog! :) I pray that you will have some good and restful sleep tonight! You guys have a great 4th of July.

    ~Marie

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  3. Jamie! I have been following your blog, and will definitely be praying that you get some good sleep :) So glad to hear the girls are growing so well!! It's not going to be long!

    Luv 'ya!!

    Allison (Sebolt) Gibeson

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